Some people’ve asked if I have any lingering covid symptoms. It’s odd but I’m more sweaty than before. If I walk half a mile on a cool San Francisco day my tshirt is wet and I don’t stop sweating for 15 minutes after I stop walking. I’m not physically exhausted in any way. It’s just embarrassing and weird. So today I took the $75 I made from this afternoon’s covid study appointment and went to Macy’s to buy a sleeveless jacket to help regulate my body temperature better. It feels nice to have something new to wear. I haven’t bought clothing in a year!

I finally had an appointment with a Psychiatrist last week. Dr Singh was incredible. We talked on the phone for an hour. I didn’t want to just have drugs pushed on me—I wanted to talk about my mind and hear a professional’s opinion. She was fully versed in spiritual/mental paths, meditation, over-the-counter supplements, ayahuasca and mushrooms, and how everything interacts with each other. She gave me tips and yellow flags to look for. And she said she’d keep my file open for four months and I could call her directly if I need to. So good.

My mind’s been much better. I definitely have a little mental health PTSD from two months ago when I had my breakdown. (We’re talking classic midlife crisis here.) I get sudden waves of anxiety and sadness but I’m mostly able to ride it out now and it passes in a minute or two.

The money stress has passed now that I’m finally getting Unemployment Insurance money. I’m feeling more directed job search-wise. My friends and family have been incredibly kind and supportive. I spent a fantastic Thanksgiving with my old friend Kiwee and saw several old SF friends. I spent a week with my friends Sarah and Eignh in Sudbury, Mass. I saw several friends in NYC. I spent a lovely couple days with my friend Javier in Vermont. I feel very fortunate and supported in many ways.

Lastly, I’m dogsitting for an old housemate in Sonoma this week so I’m pretty stoked to get out of the City already and spend some time in such a nice historic town. Looking forward to it.

Big thanks to everyone for your love and support. 💕